It's a new season

Merry Christmas to you all.. I'll bet some of you are having a swell time with your families, loved ones and friends... cool!!! I'm having a nice time here as well with friends, friends and more friends. Honestly, I didn't really feel so enthusiastic about christmas becuase it was always a time of reunion of every member in my family and this year, I wouldn't be joining them to celebrate this lovely christmas season... sigh... well, that's the price of pursuing one's future. On the other hand, I realised that I was acting naively because I had forgotten the REAL reason for christmas. It struck me how many of us today have compromised the essence and memory of what Christmas really stands for. It's a memorial day in honour of the birth of our Lord, Jesus Christ. Though it isn't recorded officially that he was born on this day, we as christians celebrate his birth because it has many meanings to us and we wish to honour the birth of the savior who died on the cross for us, mindless of what we had done wrong. That's the kind of person I want to strive to become in life... and I'm already striving for it. It's sad that we're also confronted with our finals coming up shortly after Christmas... what a special xmas gift from our beloved university...*sarcastic*. Well, I've gotta go now.. got some "stuffs" to do before I run out of valuable time. p.s. I'll really miss you!!

Time is short.....

The semester's soon coming to an end and everyone seems to be in the festive mood, though mindful of the final papers that lie ahead of them all.... ME?? I've got a different case... It would seem that as this might be my last semester, I have to enjoy every moment of it to the fullest, with friends, foes and those I care a lot about. I can say that a lot of things have taken place in my life starting from the moment I came to M'sia till now when I seem to be in love... I guess you all might be wondering if that's all there is to the "moments" I'll forever cherish... Well, I'll talk about them for a while more... I'm fortunate to serve with other lovely brothers and sisters in Hope of God and in my respective caregroup(s)... all the trials, temptations and breakthroughs we've all faced TOGETHER are still fresh in my memories.... It's 100% right to say this: Show me your friends and I'll tell you who you are. I really want to thank you all for your care, love and affection towards me.. some of you will always have a place in my heart, even when I'm gone. I accept defeat with the hope that I'll become someone better in life someday...

It's too soon to tell.....

I'm at it again... worrying about how I'll be able to cope with my studies and worse still, my midterm the previous night is nothing to write home about. But that aside, it's well-mannered of me to take the brunt of all these things 'cause it was worth it in the end. I joined my brothers and sisters to attend the yearly Malaysia National Convention, held at Kuching, Sarawak. It's just a flight away from Miri where I spent my last 2 holidays... If only I could stop there and....... just day-dreaming. The convention started on a mild note and I felt bored atimes... but I can't deny that I didn't feel comfortable with the array of Malay songs during P&W... wish it were all English songs but it wasn't to be... sigh... Well, things got pretty sad for me 'cause I had issues with some people, especially someone... whichever way it goes, I sure enjoyed all the memorable memories I had with you... I've not been so keen on talking about the decisions I made earlier but I'm thankful to God that I'm becoming more confident in some of them and just pray that he continues to abide in me. Hope the same goes to all my friends and "fans" out there... hehe... Well, I've got to draw the curtains to this splendid time with you all.... peace n Merry christmas in advance!!!!

Back to the good old times

Yippee!! At last, we were able to resolve the misunderstading between us. I was mostly upset about almost everything that you said and I said as well. I should have been more thoughtful about what I say towards you.... I guess it's better 4 me not to be SO honest.. hehe.. Well, it's also sad that I'm REALLy lonely throughout this semester considering the fact that my brother's no longer with me.. *sobs*... But it'll surely turn out for the best. Oh yea, I just wanna wish a lovely birthday to all the birthday celebrants in December such as Jessica, Abraham, Lete & Pamela. May the grace of God overshadow and keep you up at all times... From the cast and crew here, it's goodbye and have a lovely week... COMMERCIALS NOW!!!!

If I Let You Go

Day after day time pass away and I just can't get you off my mind nobody knows I hide it inside I keep on searching but i can't find the courage to show to letting you know I've never felt so much love before and once again I'm thinkin' about takin' the easy way out but if I let you go I will never know what my life would be holding you close to me? will I ever see you smiling back at me? oh yeah how will I know if I let you go? night after night I hear myself say why can't this feeling just fade away there's no one like you you speak to my heart it's such a shame we're worlds apart I'm to too shy to ask I'm to too proud to lose but sooner or later I've gotta choose and once again I'm thinkin' about taking the easy way out but if I let you go I will never know what my life would be holding you close to me? will I ever see you smiling back at me? oh yeah how will I know if I let you go? if I let you go, oh baby oooh once again I'm thinkin' about takin' the easy way out but if I let you go I will never know what my life would be holding you close to me (close to me)? will I ever see you smiling back at me? oh yeah how will I know if I let you go? but if I let you go I will never know (oh baby) will I ever see you smiling back at me oh yeah How will I know (how will i know) if I let you go?

Love at last

It's been awhile since I updated my blog. Hope you all didn't miss me much.. huh, did I just say that? That's weird!! hehe... Oh yea, it's worth mentioning that there's been a lot of visitors in our church of recent, some of whom I've come to know to a certain level. Well, they're all from Botswana which makes me still feel kinda 'lonely' since I'm not from there.. Well, I guess that I've gotten used to the hang of it. It's strange that whenever I promise myself never to fall in love again, I still do so. Could it be that I've been deceiving myself all along? I can't really say but it hurts sometimes... Funny enough, I seem to have noticed quite a nmber of people having crushes on me.. *smiles* I couldn't help wonder why it's so.. Seriously, I'm not so cute or 'smart' or knowledgeable for gals to have crushes on me but it so happens.. I think I'll have to ask them their reasons for having crushes on me... Sounds weird though... My state of decision-making has come and gone but I feel a little uneasy. Did I do the right thing afterall?? I believe I did according to God's will but then again, it's just a thought. *sigh*... I'm off to do some visitations soon.. Take care and God bless... P.S: My blog, from now on, can only be read by those I permit to do so... hehe

The truth.. *revised*

A little speech, a little thought, a little message, goes a long way in expressing one's feelings. Take away the looks, the smartness, the coolness and things alike but don't take my greatest treasure: LOVE. It could be said that a person is rich when he or she has a lot of friends but what does it count for when there's no real love between them? I've found my true self now.. though it took a while, I seem to understand the will of God for my life now. Could I be referring that I'm staying back in melaka or is it because of the new structuring in the care groups? whichever reason you might think, I'm not of the same thoughts with you. I can say that I've come across all spheres and ages in life and with the knowledge amassed from this sojourn in life, it's high time I straighten my thoughts. I'm known for my extensive thinking but I've come to realise that it's more rewarding to pray in most situations than relying on thoughts. It crosses various areas of my life such as my walk with God, my studies, social life and relationship(s). I wouldn't say I've overcome this case but I'm striving very hard to do so. It goes likewise for you all. In the past, I've been involved in issues and a relationship that turned sour. Looking back at those times, I can only say that God was really "prunning" me for my future which seems to be clearer to me now. I would really like to take the next steps in our "friendship" but something(not someone) seems to be pulling me back (like in d song by Chingy). Could it be that I shouldn't or it isn't the right time? I've no clue to the answers myself. All I'm saying is this: You're one in a million( by Bossom) and deserve to be with the one you trully love.

Something important to note

I've recently updated my friendster blog and I'm in no mood of rewriting it here. You can visit my blog at Island of thoughts . Well, have a lovely week ahead. chao!!

Glimpes of the Glamorous City of MIRI

Honestly, it was boring for me for a whole week over there. I tried to make the most of my time but to no avail. I was happy when I finally had some fun with my uncles. They invited me to join them in playing bowling. Now, this is the funny part. I've never played bowling before(well, except on mobile phones) and somehow, happened to beat both of them after three games. I was very elated with my success or rather, sheer luck. Well, here are some photos taken on my last day in Miri. Enjoy!!

My hols so far

I wouldn't be in any sense interested in riding a bike or taking a swim in a pool but it so happens that I am... Ironic, right?? Ya, I've been compelled to partake in such sports 'cos I need to be in good shape. ok, the question now is "for what"?? Well, I don't know either. Maybe in time I'll find out. Today, I tried my hands on a bicycle( it's quite large by the way ) and it so happens that I've forgotten the principles of doing so... huh?? Did I just say that?? well, it's true though. It seems that the only thing I seem to have underestimated is the importance of "balance". You know, when we sit down to think about it, say in our lives, studies and relationships, we all need to have a kind of balance. I remember reading an article which argued that a cat is less likely (well, almost impossible) to fall on its back. Reason?? It's because it's got balance. Ok, for the aspect of we humans, we have a reasonable balance with work, studies, fun and other things in life... well, most of us by the way. To me, it goes on to say that we need to find a kind of balance in whatever we're doing 'cos it sure would help us in the nearest future. For me, I think I'll keep on practising with my bicycle for now... cheers!!

So far, so good...

Well, I guess that I must begin by first saying "hi" to all my pals and friends. How's ur holidays so far? Great I hope. Well, I presume that we all are anxious and at the same time scared as we await our finals results.. I must confess that it was rough for me as well but I'll put my trust in God as always. Ohh yea, I almost forgot about my holidays here. Well, it's been NORMAL so far.. that is, nothing special out of the original. It seems that the only thing that's changed around here is ME. I don't know why I just feel like I'm missing a very precious part of me inside. Could it be my friends, my "junk" food, or something entirely different?? Only time would tell. So far, I've not visited anywhere exciting to take lots of photos. I'll make sure to post photos in my next post, k? Well, I've gotta go now. Be sure to take care and have fun throughout the holidays.. From me and the entire crew in Miri, it's Goodbye and keep in touch. Chao!!

Feelings, Emotions & Love

Wow!! It feels kinda cool and exciting to be through with school work and also beginning to enjoy the holidays.. It's been a long stretch of hardwork, determination and guts throughout this receding semester. I've been so down(in spirit) and always managed to surface back-to-earth sort of.. well, it does have to do with my friends, especially my "special" friends... Hey, hope u're not thinking what I think u're thinking about... Nah!! I don't have a "g.f.".. It's ironic to know that we have feelings for someone which is so strong that we stop trying to deny it.. I guess I spent most of my time and thoughts denying how I felt towards someone... U're probably guessing who she is, rite?? Good luck to you in such quest then.. I've come to understand of an already existing phenomenon within us which has high potentials.. It's called FEELINGS. We all can admit, or better still, I can admit that I've had feelings for quite a number of people.. Believe me when I say that it's natural.. I was reading a write-up about feelings... Quite interesting I must admit.. The author theoretically explains about how to channel our thoughts and mind in acquiring our true(positive) desires... A fact for us all to note is that desires are always there within us but they are not always positive. From my point of view, EMOTIONS are an advanced form of our feelings. It's channeled to things, issues, people or thoughts that are of high importance to us.. It could also be the driving force within us that enables us to defy all odds and stand strong. It only depends on what we channel it to, either positively or negatively.. I prefer the former to the latter, how about you all?? When our emotions are very strong and channeled to a specific thing, it transforms into what we know as LOVE. I must confess that love is something so precious to me and I guess it's the same for others... I've always had that notion that Love defines our ability to care for others and it truely depends on how we are able to express it in its true and pure form... It's hardly deniable that love can be polluted to become an "obsession" or what's known as "phobia". I've been tested by it a million times but I cannot boast of how many times I managed to come through... I could say more about all these but I would stray away from the sole reason of talking about it.. Sigh.... All I want to say is this: True love is something worth fighting for and too precious to be given up so easily. When we find it, it doesn't just touch our hearts but also our souls. Well, I'm off to sleep... All the best to my friends still preparing for their fianls... Take care and do keep in touch.. Chao!!

Our deepest fear

I've watched this film several times now since I got it from a friend. It's really mind provoking and challenges me as an individual to shine out. It's about a coach who decides to turn things round in the town he schooled in 3o years ago. It was a rough journey for him and the rest of the guys in his team. Figured out which film I'm talking about?? OK, I'll help u out.. It's "COACH CARTER". I believe most of us out there must have come across this spectacular film.. OK, time for my reviews.. The film revolves in a 90's setting of a high school in which its basketball players are groomed up by a highly rated and respected player, Kim Carter(Samuel J. Jackson). He wastes no time in laying out his principles to the "student athletes" in Richmond High School. Things take wild turns throughout the entire film.. I must point out that the cast was quite nice but the actors out to be younger players... A note to the directors... Funny, there's nothing much to point out except that it contains some explicit scenes... I'll personally recommend a "PG13" rating for it.. I open up a question for you all.. I guess some of you might not answer truthfully, some might not know what to say but deep inside our hearts, we know the undeniable truth.. I pose the question to you now: What is your deepest fear?? Take your time and feel free to drop your answers or opinions.. Before I take my leave, I'll like you all to read through 1 of my favorite quotes of all time.. To all my friends, this is 1 thing you never knew about my motivation... It goes like this:

OUR DEEPEST FEAR

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous? Actually who are we not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn't serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And when we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear,our presence automatically liberates others".

- Marianne Williamson

8 Random Facts About Me

1) Each player must post these rules first. 2) Each player starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves. 3) People who are tagged need to write their own blog about their eight things and post these rules. 4) At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names. 5) Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’re tagged, and to read your blog I love chocolate I've never been much of an enthusiast for selecting quality chocolate in my early years but I seem to have grown such a habit.. Yea rite!! I've never taken alcohol in my life Not the kind of fact u were hoping for?? But I remember when I was this close to taking a sip of alcohol when my brother caught me.. hehe.. it was a moment to relinquish.. I hate heights I try as much as possible to put a brave face when climbing a high structure but u don't see me qiute often near such buildings.. dis is the reason why.. hehe.. I love watching wrestling I won't argue anymore with those who dislike it.. I would only say "Let me be".. I'm a fan of WESTLIFE U guessed it folks!! I'm still diggin d vibes of the best ever Irish boys band.. They'll always remain my favorites of all time. I hate peanut butter Yuck!! just d thought of it sends a chill down my spine.. Reason?? It causes LOTS of pimples and I HATE pimples.. dunno if u all feel d same way.. I love to draw pictures During my leisure time or my hols, I ould most likely be found drwaing a picture of sum1 or sumthing I'm familiar with.. But I tend to have drop my favorite pasttime over these past months.. *sigh* I love to play "mind" games To all my victims or friends who've experienced it b4, I say "sorry, but it was fun"... To those who haven't, all I can say is "watch out cos u cud be next"... hehe.. Well, datz al folks... p.s I don't know much bloggers to tag.. to all bloggers out there, stop by to post a comment in my blog.. Thanks!!

Even kids learn nowadays.....

Wow!! or should I say "Bonsoir mademoiselles en monsieurs"... I'm just back from a thrilling and spontaneous trip to Johor Bahru... I was involved in the futsal team of our church and I'll satisfied in a sense that our labours were not in vain.. We strode into 3rd position at the end of the day but it came with a price: injuries. I had some injuries on my leg but I had to brave it up.. Hehe... I learnt quite a lot from the bible conference hosted by our wonderful and loving brethren in J.B. It really sets an example for us all to emulate... The theme of the bible conference was tagged "A LEARNING CHURCH". It was very inspirational as it touched areas ranging from various people and their cultures, jobs, academics, spiritual life, emotions and all those stuffs in everyday life... I've come to appreciate the importance of learning more. It's necessary for as all to adopt that habit or should I say "spirit"... Other than that, I met up with my fellow country men... well, they were both married... Hehe.. They are really setting good, better still, excellent standards for christians from my country... Pray that God will reward them for their diligence and attitude of service... KUDOS from the KID!!! Hehe... The "creme de la creme" was the trip back to melaka... I spent time talking with some of my friends and a very special person... We talked, joked about stuff and had a swell time altogether.... I must confess that I felt so "out of this world"... Well, in a way though.. hehe.. I believe it's a turning point for us all... including us... Well, I've got to go.. Got a test coming VERY soon... Catch u all later... Last word: I don't care how much people know until I know how much people care.

My Top 3 Embarrassing Moments In 2007

I'm basically not in the mood for updating my blog but to keep all you viewers satisfied(yea, right), I'm back here... Funny that I got tagged AGAIN.. Ok ok, I'll post it now... First I guess my first of such a moment would be.... wait, I'm thinking..... Oh yea... It's when everyone in my care group knew that I was "quite" young... I can still remember some visitors looking at me like I was an article in a museum tagged "He's a GENIUS"... really.. I might have even blushed once or twice 'cos the attention was really overwhelming.. Hehe.. Second Thinking..... I got it!!! It wasone of those "things" that can happen to a guy who's kinda popular.. Let me explain... When a guy is seen walking with a girl late at night, the first thing that comes into the mind of an observer would be "They're B.Fs and G.Fs".. I was once confronted by some of my "pals" about a girl they saw me talking with... Before I could explain what it was about, they immediately concluded that she was my G.F... When I look back at that moment, I can't help but feel sad... *sigh* Third A minute... a second... a moment... Now, I'm ready. Hate to say it but I must confess that I felt quite embarrassed when some technical problems occured with my laptop on the nite of Hope of God's 10th anniversary... I happened to be in charge of the multimedia for that night and it just screwed up.. Not that it was any one's fault though... I and my colleagues had put in a lot of efforts in ensuring the multimedia came out well only to see it....*sigh*... I can't even describe how I felt.. But I was greatly embarrassed... Well, as fate would have it, the event went on and it was still a memorable one... Thank God!!!. It's so sad tha I have to go now.. Feeling a little bit depressed... Catch you all some other time, k? Chao!!

An Event To Remember

Let's join in da groove wit our bots friends... hehe.. A very cool guy singing praises 2 God.. wait, datz me!!! Our bots brothers and sisters singing "When you believe"... This was done by the miming team.. Quite nice, rite??

Hey, watz wit d teddy bear?? Ohh, gues it's P. hiding.. hehe..

These are but few of the photos taken in Hope Of God's 10th Church anniversary... It was a lovely gathering; old friends and colleagues who were with us at d early stage of the church.. We thank God for their lives and hope to see them in the nearest future... That's all folks!!!

10 Things you don't know about me.

I love to wear round-neck vests. I can't really explain why.. Probably it's because I look cool wearing them.. hehe.. those who know me will tell u the same thing. I'm a First-class critic in essays and public speeches. I guess u all are surprised but u shouldn't.. I've always been prone to correct people in their speeches and use of vocabulary.. For essays, I tend to scrutinize the author in order to point out his or her flaws.. Believe me when I say that u can't survive my scrutiny... But I've changed a lot though..*smiles* I'm an ardent fan of LIVERPOOL FC. My friends and close pals back home will tell u that I was more than a fan.. I literally breathed 'liverpool'.. It was quite sad when we( I mean liverpool FC) lost the championship cup to AC MILAN... I stayed up early in the morning to watch it and even had to walk under the rain back home... See how far I could go for a club?? I go for designer brands when shopping. Sorry to say so but I'm more of a 'brand' kinda guy.. Give me the option of buyingten shirts for RM35 or a NIKE shirt for the same price and I'll surely go for the NIKE shirt.. To be honest, I've changed totally from doing that due to the exorbitant prices in Malaysia... U even need to pay for the air u breathe... No la, just jokin... I love to be the center of attention. Hey, did I just say that?? Yup, I guess I did.. It's quite obvious that I'm a 'special' guy.. If u want to find out why, go ask my friends and people close to me.. They'll tell u all u need to know.. I'm a pro in Nokia's Snake Xenemia. Quite surprised, right?? Well, I'm always into Nokia games especially Snake Xenemia.. I've actually reached 4851 points.. Can u beat that record?? I honestly don't think so.. I could have reached 5000+ had it not been for my pesky bots friend... hehe.. Well, I leave u all to try and beat my record. I'm quite shy when talking to gorgeous gals for the 1st time. I can't believe I just said that as well.. But I'm afraid it's true.. So if u're a gal and I was quite shy when I first talked to u, u must be quite GORGEOUS... Hehe.. I'm still a novice in chess. To all of who who got intimidated when I challenged u to a chess game, u must know this: I'm not a pro or champ in chess... I'm still a learner but u must know I'm a quick leraner though.. So if u still think u can beat me in a game of chess, bring it on!! I hate to swim. I admit that I always come up with excuses why I don't want to join my friends to take a dive in the swimming pool or in the ocean.. The reason's quite simple: I hate to swim.. so please don't ask me to joinu too swim, k? Tanx in advance.. I have a crush on someone. I'll leave u all to guess who.. *giggles* Well, that's all folks.. Catch u all later... Chao!!

Welcome 2 a new dawn

Whewwwww!!! Here at last!!! It's funny that I'm creating new blogs and stuffs like that when I don't even have suficient time to do so.... My week's been filled up with lots of activities, assignments and 'proposed' quizzes tha never turned up.. But I still feel that it has been thrilling for the while because of how I developed myself 2 handle a new level of stress.. yea, u heard me right.. STRESS... For a moment, I wondered hw I would get through it but as it turned out 2 be, things were in accordance to God's plan.... I know so due to the events that trailed last week and early this week... It's heart-warming 2 know that I could be of help to my friends and people around me.. Well, I gotta go now.... Be sure 2 expect more updates from me in the nearest future, k? Till then, ONE LOVE!!!!