If I Let You Go

Day after day time pass away and I just can't get you off my mind nobody knows I hide it inside I keep on searching but i can't find the courage to show to letting you know I've never felt so much love before and once again I'm thinkin' about takin' the easy way out but if I let you go I will never know what my life would be holding you close to me? will I ever see you smiling back at me? oh yeah how will I know if I let you go? night after night I hear myself say why can't this feeling just fade away there's no one like you you speak to my heart it's such a shame we're worlds apart I'm to too shy to ask I'm to too proud to lose but sooner or later I've gotta choose and once again I'm thinkin' about taking the easy way out but if I let you go I will never know what my life would be holding you close to me? will I ever see you smiling back at me? oh yeah how will I know if I let you go? if I let you go, oh baby oooh once again I'm thinkin' about takin' the easy way out but if I let you go I will never know what my life would be holding you close to me (close to me)? will I ever see you smiling back at me? oh yeah how will I know if I let you go? but if I let you go I will never know (oh baby) will I ever see you smiling back at me oh yeah How will I know (how will i know) if I let you go?

Love at last

It's been awhile since I updated my blog. Hope you all didn't miss me much.. huh, did I just say that? That's weird!! hehe... Oh yea, it's worth mentioning that there's been a lot of visitors in our church of recent, some of whom I've come to know to a certain level. Well, they're all from Botswana which makes me still feel kinda 'lonely' since I'm not from there.. Well, I guess that I've gotten used to the hang of it. It's strange that whenever I promise myself never to fall in love again, I still do so. Could it be that I've been deceiving myself all along? I can't really say but it hurts sometimes... Funny enough, I seem to have noticed quite a nmber of people having crushes on me.. *smiles* I couldn't help wonder why it's so.. Seriously, I'm not so cute or 'smart' or knowledgeable for gals to have crushes on me but it so happens.. I think I'll have to ask them their reasons for having crushes on me... Sounds weird though... My state of decision-making has come and gone but I feel a little uneasy. Did I do the right thing afterall?? I believe I did according to God's will but then again, it's just a thought. *sigh*... I'm off to do some visitations soon.. Take care and God bless... P.S: My blog, from now on, can only be read by those I permit to do so... hehe

The truth.. *revised*

A little speech, a little thought, a little message, goes a long way in expressing one's feelings. Take away the looks, the smartness, the coolness and things alike but don't take my greatest treasure: LOVE. It could be said that a person is rich when he or she has a lot of friends but what does it count for when there's no real love between them? I've found my true self now.. though it took a while, I seem to understand the will of God for my life now. Could I be referring that I'm staying back in melaka or is it because of the new structuring in the care groups? whichever reason you might think, I'm not of the same thoughts with you. I can say that I've come across all spheres and ages in life and with the knowledge amassed from this sojourn in life, it's high time I straighten my thoughts. I'm known for my extensive thinking but I've come to realise that it's more rewarding to pray in most situations than relying on thoughts. It crosses various areas of my life such as my walk with God, my studies, social life and relationship(s). I wouldn't say I've overcome this case but I'm striving very hard to do so. It goes likewise for you all. In the past, I've been involved in issues and a relationship that turned sour. Looking back at those times, I can only say that God was really "prunning" me for my future which seems to be clearer to me now. I would really like to take the next steps in our "friendship" but something(not someone) seems to be pulling me back (like in d song by Chingy). Could it be that I shouldn't or it isn't the right time? I've no clue to the answers myself. All I'm saying is this: You're one in a million( by Bossom) and deserve to be with the one you trully love.

Something important to note

I've recently updated my friendster blog and I'm in no mood of rewriting it here. You can visit my blog at Island of thoughts . Well, have a lovely week ahead. chao!!

Glimpes of the Glamorous City of MIRI

Honestly, it was boring for me for a whole week over there. I tried to make the most of my time but to no avail. I was happy when I finally had some fun with my uncles. They invited me to join them in playing bowling. Now, this is the funny part. I've never played bowling before(well, except on mobile phones) and somehow, happened to beat both of them after three games. I was very elated with my success or rather, sheer luck. Well, here are some photos taken on my last day in Miri. Enjoy!!